I'm having an absolutely awful day.
Schnitzel attacked me twice, this morning he bit my foot badly and then in the evening he just flew at me for no reason (i was nowhere near him, he just attacked me when i called his name), trapping me on the sofa. I had a box luckilly, which i managed to use to block him from jumping up. If i hadn't had it he would have savaged me. It's scar. We had a vets appointment anyway, and our wonderful vet said it didn't sound like normal behaviour caused by dominance or anxiousness. I think i'm going to take him back to Battersea, because it's not fair on my family, or me to have to live in fear of a tiny dog.
It's devastating. Even though he hurts me i love him lots, and i know it's not his fault. Giving up on him makes me feel like such a huge failure and so incredibly ashamed. I can't bare the idea of him having to go back and live in that clinical place with all the other poor dogs, but what else can i do?
My pet rat died 2 days ago. It was just of old age but i still feel so incredibly sad about it. He was a really good friend and now he's gone.
I'm meant to be having a Halloween party tomorrow, i really don't know if i'm up to it, but i really don't want to let my friends down either.
But then if we still have Schnitzel don't know if i should let them come over, what if he attacks them?
This is just awful :(
Sorry, back to the beauty stuff soon, but at the moment i have to get all this awful stuff off my chest.